"It changed again."
Haru sighed.
"What did?" Ren asked.
"My path. Yesterday I decided on science, but today humanities feels right."
Simon asked with interest, "Why do you waver?"
"I don't know. That's why I'm troubled."
Ren began analyzing. "Heart's wavering has a cause. Uncertainty."
"Uncertainty?"
"The future is invisible, so you hesitate. Whichever you choose, results aren't guaranteed."
Simon added, "Kierkegaard said, 'Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom.'"
"Dizziness?"
"Having choices creates anxiety. Without choice, no worry."
Haru thought. "But having choices is good, isn't it?"
"Two sides," Ren answered. "Freedom is power, but also burden."
"Burden?"
"Responsibility for decisions. You bear the consequences of what you choose."
Simon added, "That's why people postpone decisions."
Haru smiled wryly. "Exactly me."
"That's natural," Ren admitted. "But continuing to waver has costs too."
"Costs?"
"Time and energy. And opportunity loss."
Haru nodded deeply. "While worrying, I might miss chances."
Simon offered another perspective. "But wavering itself isn't bad."
"Huh?"
"Wavering means you're examining multiple possibilities."
Ren understood. "Deliberated decisions are better than simple ones."
"But how long should I worry?" Haru asked.
"That's difficult," Simon admitted. "Perfect information is never obtained."
"Then what should I do?"
Ren suggested, "Set a threshold. 'I'll decide when this information is gathered.'"
"But I'd worry about that threshold too."
Simon laughed. "Meta-worry. Worrying about worrying."
"Circular," Haru lamented.
"The fundamental reason hearts waver," Ren said seriously, "is that the self isn't monolithic."
"What do you mean?"
"Multiple 'I's exist within you. Rational I, emotional I, social I."
Simon nodded. "Plato's tripartite soul. Reason, spirit, appetite."
"Each demands different choices?"
"Yes. So internal dialogue emerges."
Haru understood. "Multiple voices are fighting inside me."
"That's healthy," Ren said. "Having only one voice might be more dangerous."
"Why?"
"Without diversity, you lose flexibility too."
Simon gave an example. "Dictators don't have internal dialogue. So they don't notice errors."
Haru felt a bit relieved. "So wavering isn't bad?"
"Wavering and being unable to decide are different," Ren distinguished.
"How different?"
"Waver while eventually deciding. That's important."
Simon added, "Decisions are made while accepting wavering."
"Accepting?"
"There's no perfect choice. Acknowledging that, then choosing."
Haru took a deep breath. "But what if I'm wrong?"
"Mistakes become learning," Ren answered. "Seeking perfection too much causes paralysis."
Simon said quietly, "From existentialist perspective, choices are justified afterward."
"Afterward?"
"You make the chosen path meaningful. Choices create people."
Haru pondered. "Not choice first, but meaning-making first?"
"Opposite," Ren corrected. "Choice first. But its meaning is made afterward."
Simon gave an example. "'Destined person' isn't decided at first meeting. Becomes so by walking together."
Haru smiled. "Same with paths?"
"Perhaps," Ren admitted. "Whichever you choose, you can make it right."
"Then no need to waver?"
"No, by wavering you examine options. That process enriches decisions."
Simon looked outside. "Hearts waver because we're human."
"Because human?"
"In certainty, no wavering. Because facing uncertain future, we waver."
Haru understood. "Wavering is proof of being alive?"
"Poetic but accurate," Ren smiled.
Simon added, "Don't fear wavering, proceed while wavering. That's life."
Haru stood up. "I still can't decide, but I won't fear wavering."
"That's good," Ren nodded. "Decisions come when you're ready."
"Ready?"
"Mental readiness. Not information, but resolve."
Haru looked outside. Wind swayed the trees.
"Wavering is also a kind of movement."
Simon smiled. "Yes. Much better than staying still."
The three smiled quietly. Not denying heart's wavering, but accepting it.
A wavering heart is a living heart.